There is always a great and continual longing for God in my heart. I accepted life, death and suffering according to His Holy Will. This filled me with such felicity words cannot express it. My heart throbbed with happiness. (Elizabeth) (June 5, 1965).
But as for me, I know that my Vindicator lives,
and that he will at last stand forth upon the dust;
Whom I myself shall see:
my own eyes, not another’s, shall behold him,
And from my flesh I shall see God;
my inmost being is consumed with longing. (Job 19)
Prayer Meditation: O Lord this passage from Job in the RSV-CE edition states I know that my Redeemer Lives! We know that we shall someday see You face to face, but now we see as through a glass darkly (1 Corinthians 13) if we see You at all. O Lord, Job as we know went through many tribulations and yet through it all he was still consumed with longing for You! Can we say that in our struggles our thoughts turn to longing for You of do they turn to worry, fear, despair, anger even? Do we want to scream “why us!” or do we accept life death and suffering according to Your Holy Will? O Lord there is a beautiful song by Nicole C. Mullen called My Redeemer Lives which has some beautiful lines about longing for You in our suffering. Lines from this song- “the very same God that spins things in orbit runs to the weary, the worn, and the weak. And the same gentle hands that hold me when I’m broken, they conquer death to bring me victory!” O Lord, we know that Our Redeemer Lives!